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Seeing Things From Other People’s Perspective

simplyjessica — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 09:41:31 +0000

I know New Years has passed, but I actually have one more resolution I would like to add to my lists of resolutions: stop complaining about things and stop overreacting about things. I know that I’m a complainer. I hate that about myself because in the back of my mind, I know there are people who have it much worse than I do. I know that I overreact all the time, and I know that there’s no point of overreacting because one day, that moment is going to be some hazy memory in the back of my mind.

Anyways, recently, I just realized how freaking annoying it is to hear someone complain about something. One of my friends complains a LOT. I mean, I could spend a whole day with her, and she would complain nonstop about anything. Of course, I would listen, but in my head, all I keep thinking is, “Why are you complaining? You do realize that the stuff you are complaining about is so minute compared to other bigger problems? You don’t have it as bad as other people. I just can’t hear this anymore. Why are you being so pessimistic about life?” I feel bad for thinking this way, but it’s just honestly annoying to the point that I want to speak up and ask her those questions, but I’m scared she’d overreact or get mad at me. I mean, things happen in life that aren’t fair, and I feel like it’s best to just man-up about it and move on. I don’t mind if you complain/vent about something for about 30 minutes, but after that, I’d love it if we just moved on and talked about something happy or just change the subject completely! After thinking about it, it made me realize how I also like to complain.

Same also goes for overreacting. I know I overreact a lot as well. I’m always so concerned about my grades or something that I have to do that I don’t want to do or something that already happened. But I’m really trying to stop that in two different ways. 1) I like to overreact about things that I’m too scared to do. But as part of my resolution, I said I would do things that scare me because those are the most worthwhile moments. So whenever I get assigned or have to do something that is totally out of my comfort zone, I try to think of it as an experience. 2) I also keep reminding myself that things happen and to just move on with it. I can’t change the past and in my future, it’ll just be a blurry memory. So whenever I hear this particular person overreact (which they do A LOT of the time), I try to calm her down. Of course, it never works, but I just want to tell her to calm down and not to worry about the problem anymore because it already happened and there’s nothing she can do about it.

But just seeing these two characteristics in a person made me realize how annoying these qualities are. It made me realize that I just need to bring my complaining and overreacting to a minimum. I normally complain to my sister, and it made me realize how annoying I must be to her. I don’t think I’ve heard m sister complain or overreact about anything in MONTHS. She really hasn’t, and it made me feel so ashamed. I brought this up to her earlier tonight, and I asked her why she doesn’t. She of course told me the story of how her math teacher had an infant in the hospital who almost barely survived because the baby needed a heart transplant. When her teacher told her this story, it made my sister realize that there are much worser things out there in the world than our “first world problems.”

I don’t know… I don’t know if this post is going to make sense or not because I’m absolutely exhausted and it’s almost 4 a.m., but I just wanted to write a post about pessimistic people.

Birthdays

simplyjessica — Sun, 22 Jan 2012 11:10:04 +0000

This week happened to be two of my friends birthdays. They both turned 22! Rachel’s was on Monday and Angie’s was on Saturday. For Rachel’s birthday, she invited a group of us to go eat at the Cheesecake Factory on Monday night.

Here is half of us!

The whole group.

The birthday girl with me!

Yesterday, Angie didn’t really do much. For one, we’re getting older, and I honestly don’t expect much like I used to as a child. I’m assuming she feels the same way. Plus, she is leaving for Italy in a few days, which meant that her focus was on trying to get everything packed for a 5 month long trip. So, her family bought her a big cookie cake, and then Angie and I just went out to eat at Boscos. It was a nice and quiet evening.

Angie with her cookie cake.

Her cookie cake.

Angie and her parents.

My bff and birthday girl!

Cristy and Angie

Angie posing in her new Uggs.

I will miss you Angie!!! Have a fun and safe trip! And take tons of pictures for me!

Film Festival

simplyjessica — Sat, 21 Jan 2012 06:58:26 +0000

So remember how I wrote about two entries back about my dream job? Well, I was trying to figure out a way to start off somewhere… anywhere. So, I remembered how I wanted to volunteer for the film festival held here about two years ago (but mostly, I just wanted to buy a package deal so I could go see some of the films they were planning to show). Anyways, I just went on the website and submitted my name and email for the volunteer list. They said they would be emailing back some time in March! So hopefully, that can be a start!

Also, they have this unpaid internship that I really want to try for. The qualifications aren’t bad at all because they are simple tasks that I have built up already from my own work/clinical experiences… basic things that any freaking human being can do. The only problem is that I’m still in school (obviously). So maybe I’ll try applying this summer? I mean, I only have to work in the hospital 3 days a week, which leaves me room for the other 4 days… so who knows!

“Professional” Nursing

simplyjessica — Fri, 20 Jan 2012 07:25:25 +0000

My senior capstone professor told us that we would be doing interviews with one another in two weeks and to dress “professional.” I’m going to assume that when she says “professional” she means to dress in business attire. So today, I went shopping with my mommy and sister and purchased my first business suit.

When I wear this, I feel like one of those investigators/cops/business woman/LESLIE KNOPE. Hehe.

I Finally Figured It Out…

simplyjessica — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 23:49:52 +0000

Growing up people always ask you what you want to be when you grow up. Of course, I always wanted to be some sort of “doctor” or do something in the sciences. Then once I got into college, I honestly was absolutely lost. I didn’t want to purse a pharmacology degree anymore (and thank goodness I didn’t because I just took my NCLEX review portion of pharmacology, and I knew jack shit!) So I decided to change my major. But then, the question was, what should I change it to? I had a difficult time thinking about this my whole first semester of college because my parents were paying for my tuition, and I didn’t want to waste their money if I was going to be “undecided.” So I opted for nursing because I thought, “Hey, why not? I mean it’s a lower position than a doctor which means that I don’t have to make really important decisions, and it’s a good job to have.” The problem was, I was just settling for something I thought would be easy for me. Well well well. I was very very wrong about that because nursing school is FAR from easy. I thought that is what I wanted to do with my life, but then half way through college, I decided that yes… I like it, but it’s not my dream job. And maybe I’m just being selfish with myself, but I really really want to do something that will make me happy. I want to spend the rest of my life working my “dream job.” But at the time, I didn’t know what that “dream job” would even be. Since then, I kept thinking to myself what I really would enjoy doing. Then Angie brought up this whole thing about how I love the entertainment industry… that maybe I should have gotten a major in entertainment industry instead. Of course, she did give me an idea when she brought this up to me. Since then, I kept thinking, what would I want to do with that. I talked to Adam one night, and I told him that I would love to get a job doing something behind the scenes of films. At the time, I didn’t know exactly what. Then the other night, it just occurred to me. I want to work behind the scenes of films being a location scout.

I remember my sophomore year taking my film class. It was basically a class that went into detail about the different types of crews and elements that go into making a film. The class was really time consuming with many projects, but my goodness, the projects were so much fun! We got to make a soundtrack for No Country for Old Men, and we got to think of settings and costume designs for Pan’s Labryinth. I had a fun time doing it too. We got to watch the behind the scenes featurette for some movie… and there was this lady who said she was a location scout. She talked about how her responsibility was to find the right location based on what the director and producer wanted. At the time, I thought it was interesting, but I never gave it a second thought. Then the other night, I realized how much I enjoy looking at the locations of films. Like, when I watch a movie, music video, t.v. show, etc., I watch it obviously, for the plot, but the other big thing that catches my eyes are the filming locations. After watching the film, I would literally go on imdb and look up where they filmed the movie. And what’s even more sad is the fact that there are really cheesy movies that I like based on the filming locations. LOL. I mean, the storyline is probably good to me too, but the majority of the reason I like the movie is because I’m influenced by the location. I know. It’s sad, but true. So now, I know what I really want. And I’m not saying I don’t enjoy nursing, because I do! I mean, if I could do anything in nursing, it would be women’s health because I really like it a lot! But if you were to ask me what I REALLY want to do, location scouting would be the answer. So now that I figured that out, I’m just going to keep my future options open and see what happens with that. Of course, I can’t do it right away or anything because I would really like to get a job as a nurse in women’s health and do that. Plus, a film job is never stable. But none of what is coming ahead for me is going to stop me from trying to pursue my dreams and what I really want to do.

So California, I will be heading your way soon enough!

P.S. Jason told me that he used to do some PA (production assistant) because his cousin offered him the job. He told me it was pretty easy and really fun. He said he would see if his cousin knows of some temporary PA jobs that are needed. How exciting would that be?!

Cute Bunny Coin Pouch

simplyjessica — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 12:32:22 +0000

Look what Jason got me for Christmas! Isn’t it so cute?! I love bunnies/rabbits. And this is the most adorable thing EVER.

Hm.. I just realized how easy I am to shop for. Give me something with animals… especially bunnies, and I will LOVE it!

ICU Clinical

simplyjessica — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 12:24:14 +0000

This past Saturday was my first ICU clinical. If my readers don’t know, ICU stands for intensive critical unit. I can’t disclose what hospital I attend for clinicals nor can I even really talk about much, but I just had to say a few things about it. First off, before this clinical, I was absolutely 100% terrified of the ICU. I know, it’s weird right? I mean, I’m about to be a nurse, and I’m terrified of the ICU. For me, it’s pretty intimidating because of all the equipments/machines you see when you walk into a patient’s room, and also seeing how critically ill the patient is. Of course, I was terrified of this clinical. I know that prior to Saturday, I was nervous and freaking out. I was so scared that the nurse I was assigned to would quiz me like crazy about what I know, which is not much because I’m the type to learn and remember based on interacting in the actual environment… pretty much, through experience. I remember last semester, I asked one of my friends what it was like on the ICU and what to expect. (This is because she got to go through a program this past summer where she spent about a month in all the ICU floors). She freaked me out (not that she intended to in any way) about the nurses and the clinical instructors. She told me that they are hard and intimidating, but you just have to be confident and show them that you can get your assignments done on time and whatnot. Anyways, so of course, I went in absolutely nervous. I had met my instructor a week before clinicals were to start, and I told him that I was absolutely terrified. So of course, being respectful of that, he gave me two patients who were in “stepdown.” I met my nurse, I followed her around, assisted in whatever she needed, etc. I just… I’m so happy about it. It wasn’t anything like I thought it would be. My nurse was so nice and funny. She let me ask her as many questions as I wanted no matter how dumb the question was. She let me do whatever I wanted to do. I think I learned, experienced, and did more things on this one day than I ever have in any of my clinicals…ever. It was nice. I’m glad my clinicals are on Saturdays now. I was upset about that, but I learned that Saturdays are great days to learn and do things. The floor is so quiet. There aren’t so many different types of med people walking around. I mean, the day was pretty boring because I had easier patients, but it was definitely fun.

I got to finally see an ulcer. I mean… a REALLY bad ulcer that went deep into the spine. It was crazy! My nurse and instructor were so scared I was going to pass out. That’s how shocked my face was. I got to mix vial meds and give an IV push, which I haven’t done since my first or second clinical. I got to do accuchecks, which was so easy for me since I did that during camp. I got to give an insulin shot. I got to listen to finally listen to how it really sounds when an NG tube is in an actual patient. I got to feel how soft the head is when the skull is gone (brain!). I got to see a head traction put in a patient. I got quizzed by my instructor, which normally never happens in any of my clinicals. I asked my teacher if I can pretty much do anything that I feel I’m not good/confident at, and he said I can pretty much do whatever. So this means I’m going to try and take the opportunity to hang primary and secondary lines, start IVs, maybe put in a foley catheter?? I don’t know what I will be doing, but I just know that I’m finally going to be able to put all my nursing skills into this clinical and actually use what I know and apply it to the situation at hand. It’s going to be a fun and interesting clinical (I hope!). Too bad that my instructor said there isn’t much code that goes on in this unit (I know. It’s horrible that I say that considering we don’t want our patients to die!), but it’s one of those very scary, high pressure experiences that I want to experience again since I was completely terrified by my patient coding on me during my second clinical experience.

simplyjessica — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 05:18:50 +0000

I like this song. And I love Phoebe Tonkin. She is my girl crush.

The Vampire Diaries – Our Town

simplyjessica — Fri, 13 Jan 2012 06:47:16 +0000

HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT!!! I have been waiting for this MOMENT since I started seeing all these crackship stories/graphics people make on tumblr or whatever about Klaus and Caroline. OMG OMG OMG. I NEVER EVER thought that anything would happen with them. I mean, I had been wondering when they would FINALLY meet, and when they did, I was like.. “OMG. They are in the same freaking room together!!!” But THIS episode. Omg. I had heart palpitations. I was just so giddy and excited when I saw the last scene where he saved her life, and then gave her a birthday present. OMG. Is Caroline suppose to be his upcoming romantic interest?! OMG. I’m so EXCITED (if this is the case). I mean… I still love Caroline and Tyler together. Hell, I honestly could ship Caroline with anyone and everyone. But.. getting back to my point… I felt really bad about the whole Tyler thing. =( I mean, it’s obvious that he does love her, but his sire to Klaus caused him to bite her. That made me so sad. I do hope they get back together eventually, but right now… I’m 100% loving the idea of Klaus and Caroline. OMG. THIS MOMENT!!! I’m so ecstatic!

BTW,to anyone who watches this show, does anyone else think Klaus has some MAJOR control issues? I mean, like I said, I love the idea of Klaroline, but… I have this feeling that this could be one of those, “I offered you something, so now you will eventually owe me back” kind of thing. I don’t know.. maybe I’m just paranoid, but I feel that this could be the case… I mean, he did want Tyler to bite Caroline for a reason…

Okay, yeah. I’m done. I know, I know. I sound like a complete nerd right now.

History; WWI

simplyjessica — Thu, 12 Jan 2012 08:32:30 +0000

Earlier today, Jasmine was reading something in her textbook, and I guess the example the book gave had to do with World War I. So Jasmine stops, and asks me what exactly happened in World War I. So I googled it for her, but there was way too much information, and I told her I didn’t want to read all of it to her. So then she just asked what started World War I. I told her it was because some Serbian person assassinated Archduke Franz Ferdinand. Then I went on to tell her how that one assassination caused different countries to side with one another due to their treaties and whatnot. And if one country sided with another than that meant they were declaring war on the other countries. Yada yada yada. Anyways, after reading all that and how the countries came together to become Allies and the Central Powers, I realized I was reading it all to Jasmine like it was some kind of gossip. It dawned on me how hilarious the whole thing sounded. I mean, I’m not saying that any of this is hilarious in that sense at all because war can be pretty serious… but the whole “siding” with one another reminded me of friends and their “cliques.” It reminds me of one person hating on another person and their friends siding with one another, which causes an even bigger conflict. So then, Jasmine and I were trying to pick out which countries or groups would go into what stereotypic clique… and we realized that Britain would be considered the “Queen Bee” or “popular” one because once they joined the war, they had about another 7 countries help support them since they were part of Britain. But what I’m trying to get at is that history would’ve been a lot easier if I thought of it this way because it makes it A LOT more interesting… NOT that I’m saying history isn’t interesting because it is, but it makes it easier to remember this stuff. LOL.

Oh, how Jas and I are so weird when we are bored and have too many questions.